A Summer Christmas Carol

Some people are able to move forward through life with ease others like myself constantly think about the shoulda woulda coulda..... and at 1:47am when i should be anticipating later today seeing all my friends and family all I can do is think on the things of the past. Not necessarily the people but the situations in which I feel I had an opportunity for change and let it slip by and so I guess what I am getting at is..... How do you let go of the past ? when the past won't let go of you? It's like the story of Scrooge, How so? well every regret is my little lesson a little story I am being carried through to remind me Of what? my humanity? Is this the key? Am I like Scrooge constantly missing the point and so needing that little reminder. But riddle me this, When the FUCK do I wake up?